thank you...

I wanted to take a minute to thank everyone for their amazing support and comments. This blog has been a place where I can come and rant and rave and get out all the stuff that festers inside me sometimes. It has been so cathartic for me to have this space to let it all out. To add to that wonderful women who read and take the time to comment has been so amazing. I truly believe only those who have experienced it can truly understand what a positive impact it can have on a person. It certainly has had such an impact on me.

There are days when I feel like I am going to explode from worries and stresses and I feel like I have nowhere to turn. My RL friends are fantastic but none of them are dealing with IF and the one friend I have who is has had her kids, and while she is very supportive, as all my friends are, she is not in the throws of it where you need to constantly vent about it. Having this space and getting this support has made it possible for me to function and made it so I have not had a breakdown.

I say that in all seriousness. Being heard, and being understood is one of the most powerful and healing things in the world. It is why their are support groups, and therapists, and why seeking your clergy, or rabbi can be so helpful. It also is most helpful when the support person or group have experience with what one is dealing with and why this IF blog world is so helpful. I cannot imagine my life without it.

So I want to thank each and every one of you for reading my words even if you don't comment it makes a difference just knowing others hear me. And for those who do comment I want to say you are my lifeline, you help me know I am not alone, and help me face all of this and keep going even when I don't think I can take another cycle of hope and despair. You are all helping me stay grounded while I wait and pray/meditate that this pregnancy will keep going and I will make it through each milestone.

Thank you.